Scary….

This new thing I’m doing is scary. I can’t sit here and say that is just for you. It is also for me, because I know we both need this. This is also gonna figure out me. The problem about it is that I am so scared. I know deep inside that sex with someone else is not gonna satisfy me. Is not gonna make me happy. I hope it doesn’t get worse. I will only be able to take so much of this. I know it already… But I wan to give it a chance. If you don’t really love me like your partner I will end things and just move on….
I still miss u. I still smell u on me.
No other guy can give me that feeling. I’m not scared of my feelings at all. I am just scared to lose you and lose all of this wonderful love I have for you. I am doing this for us, but because I love you.
I do hope u come Friday with me. I can’t push u, but it would mean a lot to me.